The Plan

The quick update:  chemo starts tomorrow!  

We met with our oncologist Tuesday morning.  It has taken a few days of adjusting to the news before I could post this publicly.  My cancer is a recurrence of breast cancer, in a different, yet nearby area, which makes it Stage 4.  This round it is triple negative breast cancer TNBC, which has less options for treatment.  It is inoperable because the masses are spread out and infiltrating the surrounding tissue.  The hard and sobering news, that was especially hard to share with our kids, is that the average life expectancy with this diagnosis is 2 years.  We are hopeful that chemo will shrink the tumors and hopefully ease the nerve pain in my left hand, or at least stop further progression if the nerve damage is permanent.  (Please appreciate that every a and s has to be stroked with my pointer finger!) I appreciated knowing the reality of what I'm up against, but also know that I'm not your average cancer patient.  I have hundreds of prayer warriors out there (thank you everyone), a great support network, and the most compassionate, kind and loving primary care giver anyone could have (he's been the love of my life since I was 14!)  I'm expecting a lot more than 2 years, but planning to live as if I have less than 2 years--making careful and wise decisions about my priorities, and hoping to fight through feeling badly to not miss any important moments.  

We have been blessed with some great news.  My cancer tissue was tested for PD-L1 and it was positive, so I can add in immunotherapy, which is a huge plus.  I've heard of people living many extra years due to this treatment, so that is really encouraging!  

Also, our Bishop and his wife came by for a visit last night, prayed with us and for us, and asked permission to invite our church family to fast for my family this Sunday.  On the first Sunday of the month we always skip 2 meals and go without water and give the money we would have spent on those meals (or more) to help those in need.  We fast with a purpose, and pray for that purpose and focus on that, so when you get hungry, we instead think about God and the blessings he has given us, and think about the person or purpose of our fast.  So I feel so humbled and blessed to have a church family to support my family in such a beautiful, sacred way.  All of your prayers are strongly felt.  I'm feeling very positive and optimistic, and also very composed.  I have only cried a few healthy times.  Reading this diagnosis warrants a negative reaction, but I feel surrounded by strength, love, and optimism.  It's going to be a beautiful journey!  

Beautiful winter sunset that brought me joy.

Celebrate Happy!

 The quick update:  We are still figuring things out, but getting closer to a treatment plan.  

I met with the orthopedic sarcoma specialist at Huntsman on Monday, Feb. 9th.  They said we need to know what kind of mass is wrapping around my brachial plexus.  A muscular skeletal specialist did a biopsy of that mass on Thursday, Feb. 12th.  It was perfect timing, because we could await results while we played in California. 

I met with the sarcoma specialist at City of Hope in Los Angeles on Monday, Feb. 16th.  He went over lots of potential procedures and answered questions.  It was so kind of  him to work me in on short notice and spend a lot of time discussing a still unknown type of cancer.  On Thursday the 19th, the pathology report came back from the brachial plexus area.  This biopsy had plenty of tissue to confirm more things.  Both masses are the same kind of cancer, and instead of sarcoma it is carcinoma, and is a breast cancer, though not in the breast.  From the previous pathology report, we know it is negative for hormone receptors.  My previous breast cancer was estrogen and progesterone receptor positive, so hormone blockers helped keep that cancer away for 10 years after chemo and radiation. Hormone blockers won't help this time.  We are awaiting results to see if it is HER2 positive.  We meet this Tuesday, the 24th, with my oncologist to discuss what type of breast cancer this is, treatment options, and a start day-- I'm hoping later this week.  

We had a wonderful trip to Southern California.  Kirsten drove me to City of Hope, and joined in for my doctor's visit.  We were so impressed with everyone we interacted with there.  Everyone was so friendly and helpful.

Courtney's family flew in Tuesday morning, and we all drove down to Disneyland.  Scott flew in and joined us after work meetings. The theme for Disneyland's 70th birthday is "Celebrate Happy!"  That seemed like a great theme for our family too.  We had a great time both at Disney and Kirsten's home.  

Gratitude for Nerve Pain

This week brought a few more answers. The quick update is I had the pet scan, and it ruled out any spread to major organs.  We are still awaiting biopsy information. If you want more details, keep reading. 

We continue waiting for answers and clarity on what kind of cancer/cancers we are dealing with.  I was able to schedule the pet scan for Thursday, by going out of the Huntsman Cancer Network, to Revere Health Imaging in Provo, an hour away.  Huntsman's soonest availability was the 24th, and then the 11th, which was still too long to wait and wonder.  The PET scan gave us peace of mind, knowing that the cancer was not spread to any major organs, and is all located in my upper left area, somewhat close to my breast cancer 13 years ago.  There are a couple more spots showing, but in the same general area.  

The biopsy report has taken a lot longer than expected.  Finally, on Thursday, one week after (and after my daily inquiries since Tuesday), my oncologist called to explain the delay.  The mass they biopsied has a different shape than breast cancer recurrence usually has.  It appears more like a type of soft tissue sarcoma, but there are several different kinds of those.  They may need to take more tissue samples to determine more specific answers.  They have now added in an orthopedic cancer team, who will discuss my case during their conference meeting on Monday, and then they will see me afterwards.  The breast cancer team will discuss my case on Thursday.  They may need to take more biopsy samples.  

I've had increasing nerve pain in my left arm, especially in my pinky, and a bit with my ring finger.  It is hard to do buttons, snaps, tie bows, squeeze out toothpaste, and other tasks I took for granted.  This has been going on since October, with more pronounced discomfort as weeks have gone by.  Though the nerve pain and loss of strength and dexterity has been bothersome, it has been a huge blessing because it triggered further investigation, which led to the discovery of the mass in my soft arm tissue.  It is deep in the tissue and not a place that I nor my doctors would check during breast exams.  It could have grown to a much greater size before being noticed.  Now, we can address it in its smaller size.  Another little  miracle, when the doctor told us it may be a soft tissue sarcoma, Scott called Weston, our son-in-law, who is a surgeon at City of Hope in California.  He was at a Mayo Clinic Conference and had just left a class on Sarcomas.  He eased Scott's fears, saying that in the last couple of years, major advances have been made in treating sarcomas.  Another great blessing is that he works for the #5 best cancer hospital in the country.  He set up a consultation with their sarcoma specialist, when I'm in California. 

When people used to win the super bowl, they used to answer the question, "Now that you've won the Super Bowl, what are you going to do next?" The answer was always something similar to, "I'm going to Disneyland!"  I'm about to start another big battle, and to kick it all off, "I'm going to Disneyland!"  I'm so thankful that I can make fun memories with some of our grandchildren, and their parents.  It will be great!  

I'll send updates on treatment plans as soon as we know more.  I feel the strength of all of your prayers.  I feel emotionally and spiritually strong.  I feel of your love and God's love.  It is amazing. I give all of the credit to Jesus.  He has experienced everything that we will ever face and knows how to succor us.  Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."